I see her in you

If I didn't have Christ I would be even more tore up about my mom's death. It was the 2nd of September in 2006 that she left this world and me, dad, Chris Kelly, and Christofer were with her at the moment. It was the end of a summer that was hell on earth for her and us. I would visit her in the hospital each day after work~ climbing the steps to her room and feeling the worst feelings I've ever known. She was so disappointed that she wasn't feeling good when Ted and Jean came to visit her. I'm so grateful they did visit though. Cindy and C Kelly were such unflinching rocks of strength as dad and I were breaking down.

Knowing she is restored and healed in her Father's house brings comfort. Some aspects of her life were extremely hard and I always wanted her to be happier. Now she is. But it doesn't really "get easier" with time especially because she isn't here to share the moments with Jude and Petra. It hurts. I want my mom here. People need their moms.

Mothering Jude and Petra causes me to think so much about our relationship. She loved me so much! All her children! What a happy childhood I had with her. It's really wild; there are so many times I look over at Petra from across the room and I see Gala's face! I guess she looks like me if I can see my mom in her.

If you were in Gala's inner circle, you were lucky because she gave absolute unconditional love from a huge unselfish heart. And what makes me cry is her hugs. No one has ever hugged me like that and no one ever will.